ehem!ehem! im here again blogging but not often..cos tmr i"ll be bck on track for work..sedey la actually..3 days closure of java java spa..a good rest at home..but cant waet for work tomorow..its like part of me alr..wake up in the morning dressed up for work..at night back home phoom to dewi land..every single day its like that..raye this year kinda boring to me..urm...........nort seronok like past few years..hehe!dunt talk about collections this year Kurennnnngggg...only my older cousin whom gave me..big garl already..hehe!and and and....wiwi turning 19th soon!but damn it im working...too bad cant celebrate..celebrate at home je tak?gaagagaga!to all frens n relatives thank for the hari raya wish..appreciate it alot.!tho wiwi been neglecting u guys..i noe im bad..u guys mish me so muchie kan?much apologies for that...to twins,alif,panda,reen,neb,yana,cha....dan sewaktu dengan nye la eyyy...=)let talk about work lately...oh my!im not good at guiding people,im nort strict..but this recept of mine showing her true colours...even i cant control..her mistake the blame was put on us..thats how terrible it is..i haf to b more on aftnoon shift to cover her...boss instruction...if im doin full shift..i'll be bored to death..grace please be back soon from your trip!haiya!giving up..but due to boss trust n encouragement..i been holding to the position...pfft!alright!baby love is calling gotta go now..!muacks!i"ll b updating soon..(when i got free time)=) SELAMAT HARI RAYE!!!!!!!!

Thursday..oh sooo borinnng day for me..tho me,fendi&grace are on off day today..we are still mentally shagged w all the matters at work..we would try every way to find a solution for idah fast forwrd of resigning..well apparently this new recep she still picking up over the appt book..well im hot tempered easily irritated w what she done..oh my..by hook or by crook i do have to guide her all the way..damn it..today basically i have to cum to work to settle the pckg thingy..but then the cust din turn up....i went home rest..babysit the kiddos..was force to go giant and courts..till i forget to brin along my Hp...haish!dammmn it...on period so i wont b fasting..love went to kota tinggi today..im so sad.....=( he wont b in sG till tomorow morning or afternoon..aiya!he wants to go desaru and stuffs..he even bought his baju raye already....oh mannnn!~indeed a day getaway fr him..to relief all worries he has...and and and..to my suprise he brought me to iluma and and bought us a couple ring...=)heheehehe!and he insist on bookin a chalet for my 19 birthday...but i rejected...im bored i duno what to do..im mishing love badly!oh my!tomorow anotha tragic day at work w all the nonesense....

GOood MoRning ! It's saturday already..oh man!today im on afternoon shift..idah went on time off as irah the new recep is around for training..as for sunday its my bloody big turn for a time off before i go on a hectic weeks w her..basically she was at work yesterday to train herself..train kejap take a puff..haish!i wont say anythang la...let her be..it was relax day for me...at 4pm i rest...went behind ask for crackin as my body hurts alot!aiya!knock of at 7pm...baby boy waeted for me at siglap ctr...then off to ecp kfc to breakfast..die aje puase,me i lazy to puase..hehe!after our meal we headed to iluma..adidas outlet at iluma dont caught my eyes this time..the couple lab indeed caught my eyes much rather than the dresses there..love said:sayang dresses?i ignore him..hehe!pass by bikini shop told him..b,i next time go sentosa i nak wear bikini bole?he gaf his cheeky smile and answer boleh..boleh....boleh blah!dunt eyy..heehe!!when asked why..he kept smiling..hmpf!we stop for a moment at couple lab,lookin thru the rings...whic look alot like mine..he was interested in the rings..whereas im interested in lasering the picha...wheeee!!!~we then drive off to ecp to chill out..it was HOT over there..hmpf!kept complaining of HOT...then off home as usual...and to the gangs..i apologise i cant buka-ing togetha w u guys...im working..oh man!we need a group hug mish u guys alot!from ean,alif,efy,panda,din,cha..hakim....oh mannn!!!!!!!!!!when can i meet u guys!

peek a boo..! ya im back again updating this dusty blog*coughs* i just got back from work..im tired i din fast just now..due to gastric i have to batal it...oh mannn!im losing n gaining wgt at the same time..ooohhhhh...people been askin me,why i am avoiding them..not even an sms reply..here let me tell u... @work... im always on 12hr shift..idah gona resign by end of this month..till 1st sept i have a new colleague..whic is a yr younger then me..oh my!personal matter&work they blend it well....people say im obessed w work..but im not..im tired...my day is alwaes work&home...when is the time i get to spend w pham n friends?fham&frens been naggin why isit so busy to get u..?haiya!once im at work..?i hardly check my phone..busyy entertainin all the cust....especially on weekends...im glad enuf grace&fendi are there for me..guidin me all the way without fail..even i get nagging from them..pfft!its borinnnng u noe..?at times i love this job..at time i HATE it to the core..!dammmnn! personal affair... Tho i've been spendin much of my time w boboy...i wont forget all my gangs...!on monday we breakfast at sakura w boboy..then we off to marina barrage...sit,slack...9.30pm off to favourite spot of ketendangan diri for us..ecp...sat till time doesnt permits me...pfft!both of us cant get enuf of each otha..everytime will spend time w him..to the cinema..eat..and chill out..yesterday manage to chat w ean thru msn...did manage to catch things up w and i was relief to tell him what i kept this 4 months..haish..thanx for listening n understandin dude..nanti we do group hug ok!whee!even the love i had for boboy..it cant do any different we are in 2 different worlds..haish...im still shock over the proposal..i had to reject it...it doesnt bring me any good...haish...this hari raya i might b goin for purple,orange or white...hehee!

i wont b bloggin for a moment of time...i just need to settle my own personal matters 1st before i can really get on track on w my garls n guys hopefully everythang goes fine end of this year..i noe people been buggin me when can meet and stuff why have i gone silent...i apologise for all that guys..deep inside i mish gaygengs,cha,ayie,reen,neb,yana...every single of u la...but it seem a couple of u dunt understand my working hours..its not im avoiding from u guys but i just have too..i gotta settle my own problems at work..my personal affairs..been hard for me lately..just pray hard i can get thru this biggest mistake ever made..the wrong step i took..haish..i can elaborate more here..its just some1 currently whos ever second part of my life..the wrong path whic brought me far from where i belong..urmmmm....alright people i'll b dead by tomorow 5 fuckin straight days i work full shift..best or what?~my brain stop working laaaaa......takcre people...i'll get back to u again~

im under alot of pressure lately..i duno how to keep this off my mind..i just need alot of time off..but at home they givin me problems too.i dun eve noe how to kip myself occupied..on monday night as usual spent w big guy..knock off at 7pm,promised to meet him at opposite bustop..due to all java java staff spotcheck on me..i had to make 1 big turn..asshole!keepin track of me tak agak2 la korang nie...after whic to marina..watch movie "fighting"in the middle of the show he left me alone..the tot of it he went to the loo..but it turns out he went out somewhere..i got mad n threat him im leavin him if i dun see him here..a.s.a.p he came to me..he din talk much,he knew im a sweet addict he gave me sweet but i dun even ate the sweets he gave..without much talking he hug me tite n snuff me..couldnt move much..i was really mad at him..he drove me back home,grab my bag wanted to leave he grab me n hug me..apologising non stop..i was mad,my voice is already sore..i couldnt really talk clearly...he din let go of me..grip me tite in his arms...when i say i wana make a move..he shook his head..was about to open the door then he hug me again n apologise..i forgive him every single dumbest mistake he made..today morning,something tragic happen..but everthang is clear now..we sorted it out among each otha..haish..thing happen n happen again..when can i get out of this povert circle..?period on its way cos i've been cravin for many foods lately..:))tomorow i'll b on my full shift..urgh,im tired lar...

1st i would like to apologies to all dudes&dudettes i din reply to ur sms/calls..i been busy with work..i cant manage my own time also..off to work n back home poof to lala land..i spent time at work w colleagues...i had my time off today,early morning breakfast n to wet market w family..got home,spick &span the house a lil...got sms from big guy,whic badly want to meet me..bathed n get dressed 3pm meet him..jalan2 to vivo..had lunch at earle swensen..chitty chatty...off rounding2...end up at east cost at 6+pm...we got alot of things to talk about..every single day isnt enuf for us..haha!sit by the bench..main angin...relax our mind n body...off home at 9.15pm..i just got home also....hehe!something tragic happen at work yesterday..fire burning!i was so mad even went big guy drove off them home..i din even say a word to anyone...tomorow will b goin out w him again...i cleared my time off...i cant knock off early..so sad!=(nehmind!few hours w him its fine w me..whee!!~i cut my fringe senget again..as i was not sastified w my fringe..hmpf!new hp on the 5th!yey!both of us lack of sleepso its time for me to sleep!bye sexy love!

I ony got an hour before i get dressed for work..ohmy..i gotta drag myself to work..malas nye akuu.... basically my days are filled w work..i got no time to think about myself..problems at work really..with the massues..just imagine u cum to work w a smile to start ur day at work whereas u wana eat ur own lunch they could say.."yela die ngn c dia mane nk makan lagi"blur siah aku!tak makan pun salah..was accused to bring outsider in..?tu lagi aku blur..outsider mane aku bwk masuk?!and relations w fendi they accuse macam2!brapa la kali aku nk bilang aku ngn die treated each otha like siblings..u dun understand!never will...after a week din get to b w big guy i knock off from work at 4pm..drove off to cathay to catch harry potter..before our show we dine in at swensens..he can never stop laughin same goes for me..harry potter ade mepek sikit..show ended bump into heidri(black)catch things up then off labrador park(we felt something nort right)we went to our next destination marina barrage..i told him about my decision to leave my job,n my tots abt them at work..of course i was crying n crying..he hug me n apologise to me to cause all this to happen..he whisper to me.."kau jgn tingalkn aku la.."they stab me real deep,that i cant forgive them..27 years he never felt joy n happinez w some1..then i came passing by to share all the joy n happinez..that made him cant bear to see me go...cinderella has to go home he drove to my house..what a day w him...on wednesday night supposed to work alone due to grace on mc..idah came to work to help out,knock off in the evening..at 7pm..sat outside w kak mas smoke break..went to the bank w her..saw big guy waving askin wer am i goin..kak mas said bile dekat gaduh,bile jauh tanye2...hahahahahah!!!i wanted to go ecp alone but he pester me he wanted to follow..so brought him along..nak ketendagan diri..haha!wished time could go slower than before..the moment w him..along w the sea breeze n waves...ease our mind n body...at the water breaker i felt so warm around his arms..haish...yesterday followed him sent jacqueline back to punggol then he drove me home..and now i gotta get ready for work...lazy nye..!my kechyk n big guy will b in for work at 3pm...happy nye aku!heheeh!if he doesnt have to run errands he will b around w me at the reception table..=)

problem,problems,problems..one after another i made my mind to sent my resignation letta in 2 months time..oh mann!im loving my big guy..cant bear to leave him just like that..its just me and you on the danceflloor...hehehe!!!!i'll be back for proper updates..hehehee..!bye love~!

PRESSURE @ WORK&HOME...... i cant take it animore...im too weak to go on... i shall leave my blog as it is for a moment...